waho0! at last i got my hands on the legendary AE-1 Canon. get me some films and i'm ready to go! armed with a telephoto lens. i'm unstoppable. whoahahahaah!
yeah okie yesterday gig at TAKA was okay. it's for a good cause though. For "special" kids they say. How would kids like that react if they listen to some of the music the band playing. Some band played well. But i liked one of the bands called Bricolage.( sounds like Ricola. muahahaha ). They played funky rock man! Last song they played a cover, New Skin by INCUBUS. But best is the House band. JAZZ is the way to go. Horny bass sounds. yeaH!
Now i gonna shoot someone, with my camera that is.

Yeay(making the fonzie thumb sign). at last my stormtrooper model is complete. i hope the seams does not break again. it look so fragile. now i got to colour it to complete everything. Hey...wait a minute. where's the arm? hmmm when will i have the time to make the bike? i need new paint for my 15 inch X-Wing!!!!
Got a call from norain the nobrainner( muahehehe)...she's cool. rather unexpected to get a call from her. it's great to know that someone remember you, you know. but thanks to Norain, i get a funny feeling after her suggestion. it's weird you know. i could say about it now but i think it's not wise to do so. but if i'm a moron. i think i'll do it. i doubt so. a cautious one indeed i am.

I KNOW CLERKS GONNA KICK ASS!!!
FOR THOSE WHO HAVE SEEN JAY AND SILENT BOB STRIKES BACK
YOU HAVEN'T SEEN MALLRATS YET.
AND YEAH STAR WARS KICK ASS!!!
OH YEAH ALANIS CAN'T ACT IN DOGMA
JOHN MEWES AND KEVIN SMITH, YOU ROCK MY LIFE MAN!!!
Ooops DID I FORGOT CHASING AMY?

Being a guy, i know this...

A guy makes his best plays when wooing. When the
object of his desire is won, there's no need to
expend the effort anymore. He relaxes, satisfied
with the spoils of victory, which he then decides
isn't so victorious because he's saddled with a
life-mate.
Very romantic sentiment indeed.

just came back from meeting with my friends. 3 girls and a 2 guys. i feel like with the 3 charmed ones and zad being the demon. muaheheh. still same as before i say.we had fun yeah! just sitting at youth park swensen with them. my first time with them sitting there. great place to hang out i think. they bought a banana split at swensen. And guess what? my first time eating banana split. And also my first time eating at Swensen. Whoaaaaa. Another thing i wanted to do before i serve my NS.
Hmmm tomoro i wanna go hangout with my cuzz bro. He works at the mrt and he ask me to go follow him sit in the driver seat. Oh yeah! a different view at last in the mrt. I got to sit in front!!! thats way cool i think. see how fast the mrt pass. that would be fun. And that will be during the night. you'll never know what will you encounter. Whoaaaaa... spooky? no? hmmm

This isn't the announcement you're looking for. Move along. -theMeek

i guess whatever decision u make. wether its good or bad. you'll get your reward. it's like science if you can relate to it. Every energy converted, it will change to a new form. Input to produce output. you'll always get yours. a rather used word here "karma". what goes around comes around. i feel like singing a song. i'm humming it right now. my voice is funny. the pitch is getting higher...Radiohead songs comes to mind. And here "Karma Police". Ehurm Uhurm...(aidil clears his throats and wait for an encore...)

Karma police, arrest this man
He talks in maths
He buzzes like a fridge
He's like a detuned radio

Karma police, arrest this girl
Her Hitler hairdo is
Making me feel ill
And we have crashed her party

This is what you get
This is what you get
This is what you get when you mess with us

Karma Police
I've given all I can
It's not enough
I've given all I can
But we're still on the payroll

This is what you get
This is what you get
This is what you get when you mess with us

And for a minute there, I lost myself, I lost myself
And for a minute there, I lost myself, I lost myself

For for a minute there, I lost myself, I lost myself
For for a minute there, I lost myself, I lost myself
Phew, for a minute there, I lost myself, I lost myself...................(keep dragging the self till his hearts caves in)

I'm so happy to talk to some of my icq friends. some of them are MIA but thats okie. i had a talk with Zura. she's a good talker. she looks hot too and have those great wide smile. maybe she can work as a darlie advertisement.And there is Linda. Another funny gaL. we lurve to talk nonsense. dunno how she's doing now. MIA for quite sometimes. maybe the exams is near. good luck to her. hmmm i wish i have a lot of girl friends. But i hope i will not be soft 'cause I am DAMN STRAIGHT you know. Hmmm maybe hanging around with alot of girls will boost my morale. anyway i love to listen to girls talk...i said talk not whine. if they are, i will run and cry i think.
Hey...some girls doesn't suck at all anyway. i said some. muaheheh

Will be meeting the others later @ Orchard. Seems like have not seeing them for eons. But it have been only 2months only since i saw them. Nice fellas there are. i'm wondering where might we hang around later? i hope we just sit around and laugh. 'cause i don't have enough money to buy anything. if only my paycheck goes over 1K. that would be nice of them. maybe i should tell them that i have 4 families to support and i got 4 football teams of children to feed. But that would be stupid of me. 'cause he's not stupid. but my supervisor smiles alot. maybe there is stupidity in his smile. Oops sorry Mr. Supervisor Lim. I did not mock at you. I'm just high, thats all. Did i say i'm high? Which floor am i on anyway? What just 2nd floor? Whoa that is so high!...NOT!

rainy days...just me and my cigs.
blowing out O-rings, and Z-rings
Z-rings? thats hard. you should see my face when i'm doing that.
It will look like someone having constipation
that is not so cool. but nevermind
the cool air will nullifies it.
I have no whatsoever idea i'm talking about

Hey, what can i say?
Now kick me in the nuts.
Make me scream like a girl.
Now,
That is an epitaph of an old weary boy.

i'm slipping again from sanity...

On the bus on my way to work, i saw this girl. a very cautious one, i say. every move she makes, she thought about it not to make any grave mistakes. she was approaching me and with her dark etched rings under her sullen eyes, she look at me intensely. the eyes i thought. blue within blue eyes with no white on them. As if she was talking to me telephaticly. Under the Norse Meek Way, I calm myself. I remember. "I must not fear. Fear is a mind-killer. Fear is the little death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see it path. Where fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain". She was approaching fast. What a demeneur sweet looking creature, i say under my slow breath. Whatever i do, i must do hastily. Then she said "Is anyone sitting beside you". Bahhh!!! for the love of Meek.
Nice looking girl i say by the way...cute.

Hey guys, here is my log to my irc chat yesterday. i was bored. so i ended up talking to an irc bot. it's in malay. I use the nick kambengrawk. And the bot is musibot

kambengrawk: oi musbot
kambengrawk: oiiii musibot
kambengrawk: marila kita beronggeng
kambengrawk: musibot kenapa kau tak datang party aku semalam
kambengrawk: apa la
kambengrawk: apa dia?
kambengrawk: ko sakit perut?
kambengrawk: patut ah
lembuskate: ok si kambeng dah start nak mintak susu
kambengrawk: selalu ko datang
kambengrawk: apa la ko
kambengrawk: aku ingat ko mati
kambengrawk: takpe ah
kambengrawk: sebab ko nak tau kenapa
kambengrawk: aku telpon rumah ko
kambengrawk: sekali bapak kau angkat ah
kambengrawk: aku tanya oi musibot mana?
kambengrawk: terus bapak kau cakap " musibot dah takde, dia dah mampos"
kambengrawk: apa siak
kambengrawk: aku call balek ah
kambengrawk: terus dia cakap " musibot takde, dia balek india"
kambengrawk: apa je bapak kau ni
kambengrawk: heran sey aku macam kau gak
lembuskate: sekali musi-bot bangun 'enjot' lu baru tau
kambengrawk: takdela gitu sekali, dia baik punyer. bapak dia negro

this is so wrong, i say...

kept asking myself this...
am i living my life as it should be?
I don't know wether i should be happy or sad.
I don't know wether to laugh or cry.
But i guess i'm happy with everything eventhough things are not going as i thought it would be
Well I got a pet cat where i can talk to. Most of the time anyway.
I hardly pickup the phone. Rarely
Even if it rings, its for my sister.
My sister and i am are the total opposite i guess.
Well she's popular And i'm not.
But i don't care anyway. It doesn't matter. I never conform to this type of things.
I never conform. We should never conform.

I guess i'm proud to be a queer guy. or is it not?...

Muahehehe
I just remembered. I guess most of you played Card games before. Heard of the game "Bluff"?
So i played it with my sister. Just the two of us. Just the two of us i say.
Stupid ain't it!? you'll get the joke if you played "Bluff" before.
Moron I am!

HEY I SAY!
I AM PROUD TO SAY THAT I AM A FAN OF LORD OF THE RINGS, DUNE AND ALSO STAR WARS.
I AM A SCI-FI AND A FANTASY LORE LOVER.
Whoa....what a geekfreak!?

Well yesterday after work, i was bored. So i walk over to Borders. walk around and straight went to the comic section. I was surprised. Theres nobody at the comic section except me. Whoa all the books just for me. I sat for a while. read some books on THE SANDMAN. great book. I was searching for the comic "Crisis in Alternate Universe" but can't seem to find it". "DARN"i say lightly to myself. i just reead that book halfway and its gone? Whoa that is not very nice of the person working there. why can't i read the book. Suddenly a thought came over me "Buy the book and read, Moron.Don't be a freeloader". I hate that thought. I need a new thought to replace that thought. this thought is rude calling me a moron and a freeloader. Bahh!
Got myself the Lords of the Rings trilogy at last. I wanted to buy the hardcover with all three chapters all in one. But i like the black cover edition. It look more mysterious. If i have the money i would prefer the ancient kind of look. But it costs my arm and my dick! Oops! Hmmm maybe one day i'll become a book detective/collectors. I just love the book of the ancient. The binding, The fonts and the sound of crispy paper. I've seen such movie. I think its the Ninth Gates. Just one of my dreams. Hmmm maybe i'm gonna get myself "Walden" with my next paycheck. I remember one of the quotes. it goes like this -

If you have built castles in the air,
your work need not be lost; that is where they should be.
Now put the foundations under them.

It's already week 6 of my Industrial Attachment. Time flies with haste. I wish it was much faster, like sun rays. Do you know that? The light we recieved from the sun actually came about 200000 million light years from the source. it means that we are receiving ancient light rays from the sun itself. As you can see how fast light travel eh? But it took a gazillion light years to reach Earth. But that is how far the sun and the Earth is. Yet we can see the sun. How enormous our galaxy is, i mean galaxies. Every planet, every moon there is someone guarding it. For a million of years, planets orbit side by side without any clashing. The gravity that pulls together. The rule, the proxy of life. The order of the Planets. Praise to Allah!
Seen yesterday news? Someone from Jurong West saw an Unidentified Flying Object. I'm not amazed about these things 'cause they exist. How can a world so big, so vast and we are the only one living? Of course no. I am a sci-fi fanatics. I am fascinated by all these paranormal events. Such things we cannot avoid. From my point of view, i think these aliens are "Jihn". Hey, there you say thinking "Hey this guy is going nuts". Hehehhe. Ah just some thoughts to keep my brains from checking out. Weird...
Alien exist! By Blink182

ahh man, i'm late for work again. one of this days, i'm surely gonna get it but i doubt it. My LO is a "bochap" king and my supervisor another "bochap Emperor! I need new batteries for my biological clock i think. it's gone haywired. Something is distracting my space time continuum, you know. Eg. time was 8.00am. i slept and woke up refreshed thinking that i had been sleeping for an entire day. But when i woke up, it was only 8.01am. that is surely strange eh? Its like when i slept, the time slows down to a complete minute rate. yeah i have the POWER....better get those rechargable batteries. that would cost cheaper i guess. And good morning good people!

Ps: I have no complete idea of the saying above. Maybe i read too much on the Unified Field Theory. If only the word "Humantics" doesn't arise, the world would be a complete different time frame. know what i meant by that?

i'm feeling funny nowadays. my head hurts sometimes. but i'm not crazy. maybe i'm a little lunatic i guess.i may talk funny. i mumble a lot. i swallow my own words. its yummy sometimes. but when i lie, and i swallow them. they taste stale i tell you. don't say i didn't warn you, okay.
had fauzi slept over my house yesterday. talk till 4am i think. talk about old times and what will come for the future. dude! i'm afraid of one thing. just one thing. growing old alone. that is not cool man. what if you'll see your all friends married with kids. And you, still in alone. with your balloen mannuquin.. harhhaha....i dread that. i hope to find someone to fill my life man. but like what i say to my friend, fauzi. its hard man. to start a relationship. its hard to impress a women. but i guess that is the part where you got to know each other needs. but i think the best part in the relationship is when at last for once, you have something,your hopes and dreams to pinned on to. To share every moment you know. that is life.
oh man, i need some love now....i need to cry. it have been a long time since...





I'm a little lunatic
Let me go, I´m not crazy anymore, I´m just like you,
A man with ears and eyes
Can´t you see, I am normal now for sure,
I´m a boy who´s wearing red striped ties
I´m just a little lunatic with a caddledrum and a stick
I play the whole time the same old song
I´m just a little lunatic and my name it is not Rick
If you call me Rick – Then you are wrong
You are wrong
Let me go, I´m not the same as I was before
Ichanged my life – conversion of my mind
Can´t you see, this lonely life is such a bore
I´m no longer one of this mad kind
I´m not a little lunatic, no more playing with my stick
No more singing the same old song
I´m not a little lunatic, I will break out and then I will buy a pig
That I´ll call Elvis, cause you are wrong
You are wrong

there will be consprirasy...remember WW2? Ever heard of "The Philadelphia Experiment"?...let me refresh your mind. PROJECT INVISIBILITYwhat do you think? Is it true a top secret US navy experiment, carried out in 1943 i think, made a destroyer dissapear from its berth in Philadephia and reappearonly in a matter of minutes in Norfolk, Virginia. Its all derive from Einstein's unproved theory, Unified Field Theory. If it all may seem, its part of a project called PROJECT BLUEBOOK. another reverse technology or from an anceint technology to create an anti gravity drive. I may not explain further. whatever it is, there is 3 sides of the story, MINE,YOURS and THE TRUTH!

strange things happening...some images which i don't ever recalled of. what does this all means? its getting weird every minute i close my eyes. there got to be an explanations. i will record every piece of information i've encountered. I don't know wether this is real or just dream. it seems so real to me, you know. its like a message from the future?(or the past maybe?) Its like one minute i was standing at one spot and the next thing i wink, i am in a different place, an alien place or a different era in a different alternate reality. it happened to me a couple of times this week. it seems so real. but i can't seem to recall everything. everytime i try to concentrate, my mind check out on me. its like i'm in a semi-comatose state, you know?
things like a silver pocket watch....a rocking toy horse........and then, explosion! not that kind of explosion. it's like your mind just suddenly rebel on you...ahhh its no use. i saw the sky turn black, and a vision of a dead city...a dead world. there will be a time where...someone will rule the world with peace. And with an alien technology....seams weird...just like a scene from STARGATE. whoa.....i need to recuperate.
You know some knowledge of the unknown, are better left unknown...

Here I sit and I am waiting
If you´ll come or if you won´t
You´re abusing all my feelings
And you kick my heart around
I am sure that you´re no angel
Cause you left me in the bathroom
And you´ve locked it from outside
And now you´re gone
And I think if it is true
It would be so nice, when it came over you
And would stop my cries, and
I´m sure you´ld fell so too
Here I´m sitting once again - a big knife in my hand
You are lying in front of me – but you deserved it
And I don´t belive it´s true

Ah saturday... i hate somebody waking me up in the morning. there my mom called me up from her stall. she forgot to bring her small coins for change. arghhhh why must it be Saturday morning!? lazily i wash my face, wet my hair and wear some yesterdays clothes. lazy to bathe man...Oh yeah i say out loud! i'm lazy to bath! okie okie then i got to her place. took a bus. And then...yeah and then....i realize something. I FORGOT TO WEAR MY UNDIES!!!. oh yeah....greatnesS...FREEDOM TO MY BROTHER. ah well...
Hmmm rainy day...thats nice. to cuddle someone with...ah where is my someone? oh i don't have any. okie nevermind...maybe i would blow up some balloon and make my own significant others mannequin. heheh.demented! hmm maybe i shall take a walk at the beach. Yeah. Je vais ala plarge choulle ala chette. Oh i forgot...my cuzz invite me to his friend bbq at Eastcoast! oh yay oh yay! eh!? but that sucks already. same ol' same ol'. Hey guess what!? i got some of kevin smith movies. great dude! maybe i'm the personification of Silent Bob. that is so...erm silent of me.i am thus the meek...

I am so ashamed of myself. I have just broke a rule in the SUPERHEROES rulebook. I have shared my secret identity THE SHIRT NINJA to others. I do not wish it to be like this. I am ashamed to look at Superman, The Green LAntern, The Flash, Spiderwoman(she's a babe you know) and the rest. Sorry if i forget to mention you guys. I love you Phoenix....So when our next date eh? Hmmm maybe i just stop being SHIRT NINJA and become something else like The Uncommon Man. That would be very unCommon, you dig? My mouse is failing on me again. Why can't you moves properly Mr. Mouse? Oh what did you say? Your balls got stuck with dirt? What balls? Oh that ball under your belly, Mr Mouse? Oh okie i will clean your balls for you. Oh wait you got only one ball. You are so weird Mr Mouse.
Probably i'm thinking of renting a car, and drive my parents. Hmmmm why can't cars be cheap like Matchboxs cars? That would be dumb of them eh? Hmmm driving is nice. Maybe i will work as a TAXI driver and drive just like the MOVIE TAXI. that would be nice. I would drive a cool car. And that is where my dreams come true. I won a car just NOW. The car can really go for over 924kph/h. That is fast eh? And it can accomodate nobody. How is that so , you ask eh? Well its an imaginary car. And i won it from an imaginary Company called the superDopeyPinkFlamingoCaravan Pte Ltd.

This message have been interrupted due to webmaster incapability to talk sanely.
He is now on the way to MENTAL DIVERGANCE HOSPITAL
This message have been brought to by the letter alif, number (PI*R)(PI*R) and the words instantiate.
Make me a man. Be my girlfriend. Whoa it rhymes...huh huh! huh huh! (stop yanking that beaviS)

I feel like intoducing myself.
My name is aidiL, at home i refer myself as Atin. And some call me diL.
Before i was finally named aidiL, i was maybe called Anang.
I was born in August 17th 1980. I got a big head.
And a big nose. My hair is funny.



This is NOW me. I even look funnier now.Muahehehe.



I like living in the kampong days.
Now there are hardly any kampung here in Singapore.
But i'll treasure that memories of mine.
I am so brief. Thank you. And i am not wearing any briefs. Oops!?

Interesting....

You have to try this one!!! Here is something really strange:
Did you know that a flight number from one of the planes that hit one
of the two towers was Q33NY.
In MS Word, type in that flight number (Q33NY) Enlarge the font size
to 26. Change the font to Wingdings. See what you get.

Arghhh! My partner is on leave again. I'm so bored. This place is so quiet. At last my server connection is resolves and am able to do my work. At least my boss won't be screaming at me anymore.
So sleepy today. Went out with my cuzz. Drive around town area. Went to Changi to disturbs some trasvestites. Hehehe. I can't believe most of them are more beautiful than girLs. It makes me go Whoa( like Keanu Reeves). Nice body man....I wolf whistle at one of them and she/he smiled at me. Muaheheh but she look so Eurasian. What a waste man. Them turning to into woMEN. I bet they cut off their beef bayonets and fried them. And ate it with Maggi Mee. Oh that sound gross. I bet it make you wanna vomit eh? Did i make you vomit? Did i? Did i? No, you didn't? Ahhh well...i'll get you next time.
I think i had alot of those cancer sticks(i just learnt this word). I think i'm having a sore throat. Whoaaa maybe i can sing better with my grouchy throaty(i know that is not a word) sound. I wanna be a punk rawk singer. Muahehehe. just like Mr.Greg from Bad Religion. That would be great. Thank you , I'll see you next time
And FUCK YOU VERY MUCH! Muahehehe

muaheheh. i am laughing at my ownself. That is so funny. heheh. I'm eating this Chewy Gobstopper. I like the purple color. It taste so..erm...purplish. Is that useful to me? in the future when i'm reading this? I doubt so.
I feel like singing suddenly. about bikini. i remember this song. i like that song. so simple it is.

She was afraid to come out of the locker
She was as nervous as she could be
She was afraid to come out of the locker
She was afraid that somebody would see
(Two, three, four, tell the people what she wore)

It was an itsy bitsy teenie weenie yellow polka-dot bikini
That she wore for the first time today
An itsy teenie weenie yellow polka-dot bikini
So in the locker she wanted to stay
(Two, three, four, stick around we'll tell ya more)

She was afraid to come out in the open
And so a blanket around her she wore
She was afraid to come out in the open
And so she sat bundled up on the shore
(Two, three, four, tell the people what she wore)

It was an itsy bitsy teenie weenie yellow polka-dot bikini
That she wore for the first time today
An itsy teenie weenie yellow polka-dot bikini
So in the blanket she wanted to stay
(Two, three, four, stick around we'll tell ya more)

Now she's afraid to come of the water
And I wonder what she's gonna do
Now she's afraid to come out of the water
And the poor little girl's turnin' blue
(Two, three, four, tell the people what she wore)

It was an itsy bitsy teenie weenie yellow polka-dot bikini
That she wore for the first time today
An itsy teenie weenie yellow polka-dot bikini
So in the water she wanted to stay

(From the locker to the blanket)
(From the blanket to the shore)
(From the shore to the water)
Guess there isn't any more

Itsy Bitsy Teenie Weenie Yellow Polka-Dot Bikini
Brian Hyland
Written by Paul Vance and Lee Pockriss

Peaked at # 1 in 1960
Co-songwriter Paul Vance was inspired to write this song after seeing his 2-year old daughter
Paula play at the beach in her bathing suit. Later featured in the 1962 comedy film One, Two,
Three, starring Jimmy Cagney & Arlene Francis, with the Russians using the song to try to torture
a suspected spy.

Stated in early 1983

I think it's time somebody speaks up. I can't believe what's happening with the idea of punk. Punk started out as an idea for us to break out of the mold we're been placed in. A way to do what you want; a right to be yourself and not what someone else wants you to be.

But....

Now the complete opposite has happened. Instead of falling into the confines of "normal" people, punks are trapped into being punks. At the next show you go to, look around. Everybody looks the same....They all think the same.

-Steve Stepe
Golden Age of Punk

Hello People. Are you reading this? If you are, good then. Hahaha people reading this? I think i'm delussional. OKay okay. So I'm reading a book called "Notes from the underground Zines and the politics of alternative culture". I think i bought this at TOWERS before it went kaputz! I'm thinking of making my own zines. How about that? With my poor english and bad grammars + my queers mind( i love the word queer maybe i am one), i would make a perfect no motive zines with a touch of banana split. Hmmm anyway i never taste banana split before. So get prepare for a mind blowing experince for "WhentheMeekAttacks". Yeahooo.
Anyone who is reading this, i'm thinking of opening a forum for people to ramble about. Things about what is happening in Singapore, locals bands or whatever crap they wanna whine about. Is there anyone out there?....But i guess there is already a forum for that eh? Anyone knoew any links, can you people please email me? pretty please?

I AM HERE TO TELL YOU THAT THE MOVIE A.I. IS THE BEST SHOW I HAVE SEEN. But i wish STANLEY KUBRICK was still alive to direct the movie. But then, the show was okay, i guess. Some of these days, when i'm free. i will put the ALICE CHAT BOT here. That would be awesome. It's like you are completely chatting to a real person. It's weird sometimes. How the chatbot can reply. The last version was not that great. It kept repeating every words umpteen times. The author finally manage to create it to a near perfect chatbot. I don't know out of the sudden, i feel like talking about this movie. This movie, i say, holds a lot of metaphors you see? You must analyze every detail of the story. I'll bet those sci-fi freaks like moi, will watch it more that once. Great movie it is. I give it a theMeek Award! eh? since when do i have my own award?

Now, i'm feeling spacey u know. not kevin spacey. Erhh? i think you know what i mean. And hey thanks to someone named Mr. Marigold i think. i learnt a new old word, ciggies == cancer stick. cool eh? not cool u say? go on and suck ur own beef bayonets then! Oh i'm hungry now. bye! w00t!

Hmm me again. ah some refreshing news for me and to me and me. And yeah to everyone whoe read this. i think. i'm so fickle am i?? okie okie....so someone called Aish from Kellynumb wrote in my guestbook. stating that "you are EVERYWHERE!!!! do u know that?" wtf is that supposed to mean i wonder? i ponder? hmmm does wonder ==ponder? i guess not. well my english is bad. it means that its not good. its absence of goodness so it is bad. oh mah head hurts and my toe hurts too.
Okie i don't know what she meant by that. but she is good though. i think. Ahhh yes, I think i farted a way enourmous amount of gas to the enviroment. Thats why i am everyway. But that is not good. Maybe i will be sued by the goverment cause i will be sued for air pollution. Noooo!! I do not want that. I want to be nominated People of the Month. Erhkkk???? Nooo i wouldn't want a dorky face on a poster. It would be...i guess dorky!.....Hmmm i think i'm going nowhere!? w00t!

I'm joining GSF!

true ain't it?

ok, i've lost all hope
Thursday, November 30, 8:00:16 PM. by: Ben


i've been posting about girls on forums, trying to spread the word of their evil.
i've lost all hope. serioulsy, i can't even concieve of ever having another
relationship with a girl ever again. this isn't just due to the fact that i'm
ugly either. it's just the painful realization that they're all fucking whores that
deserve to be shot due to pure and utter selfishness. i've come to realize they
only go out with guys to gain something. what you ask? anything they feel they need.
so fucking selfish. that's why we get our balls chopped off by them all the time.
i don't know about you, but in my experience (as pathetic as it may be), they do a
good amount of lying. constantly. "i'll call you". heh, i just walk away from that one
with "bullshit" on my breath. what makes them selfish? i'd say its the fact that they
only found you attractive during the right time of day or in the right light or
something so they said, "what the hell, i'll go out with him". but the one thing they
always have on their minds is the fact that you're an ugly gomer and there's no way in
hell she'd marry you so you better enjoy it while it lasts. then she dumps you a week
later for lame ass reasons (i.e. beer, other guys, lamps etc.). and i know what you cute
couples are thinking right now as you read this "she'd never do that to me" or "i'd
never do that to him"... guess again. unless she really does like you enough or
it's the right time of the month or something, you're just another
casualty. that's all i have to say about that.


GSF 4 LIFE.

The way I see it, girls say they are looking for love. But, in all reality,
they are lying sacks of shit. They aren't looking for love, in fact, their
on the oppisite of the ball here, they want to look good in front of their
friends. It goes like this, they see you, or you see them, whatever, either
way it doesnt matter after you meet her friends, because her freinds say "oh,
hes kinda cute" or "wow, i wish i had a guy like him" or something like that.
Then the following things occur. You get lucky and go out with her, she
stops calling, refferring to bens theory here, she starts lying, she cheats,
then, finally she decides that shes had enough and thinks that your ready to
break up. But thats not it. She doesn't tell you right away. No way! That would
be the right thing to do! No, see they wait like at least 10 days, i think
that is the bare minumum. "You must wait 10 days before you decide that you
are going to tell him that you broke up! Otherwise most certain death will
follow!" I think thats in the "Girls guide to being a good girlfriend" Yea,
in fact in my experiences its the number one rule. Hm.. So, they dump you,
only they don't tell you, suddenly they don't answer phone calls anymore, and
then, they sluff you off in front of thier friends. Because once you've met her
friends, your old news, her friends realize that your off limits, and so they
decide that your dumb.. stupid.. and worthless.. etc. Suddenly she goes into
"my friends don't like you anymore" and its OVER.
Thats just a personal reference, and the way i see almost every potential relationship..
sorry, i've been shitted upon way to many times, and i kinda enjoy emotional
stability myself. Besides, i have an awesome dog, i'm too busy for girls.. PSHHH..


Cant run away from yourself.......or your feelings
Posted by GSFsk8er182 on December 1, 2000, 1:43 pm
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You know that feeling, that one right after the girl has ripped your heart
out and crushed it...that horrible, deep in the chest pain, and you dont
know what to do? you want to sit down but you cant, and you want to run
away somewhere but you dont know where, your eyes fill up with tears, you
actually get in your car and start driving somewhere, you dont know where,
but then after driving for a while you realize you cant get away from yourself
.....its horrible!
i am also joining GSF, and i realize that all girls are whores that want
something, i was actually dumped because i'm "a good guy". I'm saying good
by to relationships for a LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG time.
and why the hell is the guy your dumped for always a freakin looser?!?!?!?!
why??? hey, i know i'm not the most attractive guy in the world, but hell,
i'm way better than the peice of trash she left me for, "you girls are crazy"
all the lyrics to MxPx and NFG are true, every little word of it..


Part 2

The things girls say, (what dont they say, they'll say anything to......)
Posted by GSFsk8er182 on December 3, 2000, 3:21 am


these are the following bullshit phrases i'll NEVER again believe from a girl
....and you know the saying "fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on
me..." it helps because i was stupid to believe them the first time, but after
having my heart....no excuse me, after having my spirit and inner self killed
by a b###h i realized how evil they are....anyways, here are the phrases that are BS Lies:
1. "i've never met anyone like you!.." lol, yeah right, translation: "i cant
believe i've found another idiot who i can lie to and manipulate"

2. " you're the coolest guy i've ever met!..." this one at first doesn't seem
so bad...but soon after you are cruelly dumped, you become inraged to find out
on how many guys she's used this pathetic piece of shit line on.

3. "you'r so different" yeah right!, now excuse me, are you talking about my
personality or how big my cock is? slut! i swear, nothing worse then a girl
who go's around playin guys.....i just want to go out and shoot them all

4. "..i used to do all that stuff (drugs, drinking, sex) but i'm different
now, i've changed" ha! dont even think about believing this shit, trust me,
once a girl is in that kind of lifestyle, she CANT get out of it, and the only
thing she can do is lie about it, and why does she lie about it? easy: to get
new blood

5. "...i dont like my boyfriend, all he does is get high, i want someone
different, i want a good guy for a change.." this one has to be like one of
the worst, let me explain. If a girl has said anything at all that slightly
resembles this phrase to you, just know she's a lieing manipulative b###h! if
you're a decent guy, then you start thinking, "now's my chance! she would definitely
go out with me!" its even worse when you've liked the girl for AGES. Dont even
bother, its not humanly possible for her to leave a piece of shit bf like the
one she currently has...as hard as she might try, sooner or later you will hear
this: "this weekend i hung out with my friends and (insert the loser fags name
in here) was here, and you know we started making out, and one thing led to
another....so yeah, i'm back with (piece of shits name here). First the b###h
tells you something you desperatly want to hear, that she doesn't like her bf,
that sets your hopes waaaaaay high, but then she smashes all those hopes....b###h
cant make up her mind, and you go insane!

6. "...lets just be friends..." hopefully all guys already know what this shit
means... "now that i've let you suffer for quite some time, i'm finally gonna
jab this dagger through your heart and rip it out....S l o w l y friends????
yeah right, she'll never want to see your face again, let alone hear your voice,
its on to "fresh meat" for her, probably one of your friends, actually, its allways
one of your friends

there are probably dozens of other puke inducing lies that girls spit at you...i
just cant think of them right now, but you get the idea

now lets all share the thread of lies a girl has spun on you, dont be shy, i know
you have plenty

after all, knowledge is power...or some shit like that, and i'm just curious to
what other crap a girls mind could think of, so please do share
i want to hear all your stories
more phrases!!!

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find the hidden message, kids.

Go back inside
We say next time
Silver falls, it sliver shears
Mercury falls...

La la la di da!

Whoa... monday blues, monday greens and monday yellows! I'm late again for work. Darn i hope my boss doesn't come to my cubicle. I'm working here for already for a months. Time seems to fly away hastily. That would be good though. I can't wait to finish my IPP.
Read thru some of the entries in my guestbook, and saw this guy/girl, and she/he said like my blog. Whoa... i say! A hilarious guy i am? Am i? Do i? Doesn't matter. It feels great though, someone to read your ramblings. One more person to know that i exist in this world now. yeah! i think? So today is another monday i guess. Just came back from lunch and i kinda realize that my place is also a so called "twin tower". Heheh another plan concocting in my head. What if....that plan landed there. Anyway i'm late for work most of the days. I wouldn't be around you see. I would see it goes to flames. Then i will be in the news. I will say that i'm one of the survivors. WHoaaa...instant fame! But that wouldn't be nice. There would be nice person working in there. But if that happens, i wouldn't go to work anymore. The place would be in rubbles. But what will happen to my IPP? I want to get a diploma. Will i use it? I hope so. I don't want to become a chicken rice seller. But the rice is nice though.
I still want to buy that book i saw at Borders. Its called "Crisis in alternate universe" i think? Cool, Cold, Colder, Coldest book i ever knew. But the price was way out of my head. Hmmm better buy the next series of the Lord of the Rings. Maybe i would go there again around this week. Hey....isn't Borders some sort of a library. I went there to read books anyway. If i don't finish it, i would bring the book and place it at the chicldren section or something. Then i would come another day, to continue reading it. Ohhh that is so selfish of me. Haahahah. I wouldn't care less. Hahahah.. Hahahahahah(evil laughter)....*cough *cough....oooh its so hard to become an evil laughter man. w00t!

ah yes, there it goes again. what is that i say? I don't know i say? What did i say again? i say. I don't know i say. Hmm i think my head hurts. I don't know. Maybe i need rest. But then again, i had enough rest already. Hmmmm. this time my bum hurts. something is biting my arse oh wait! that is my arse eating my undies. This is not so good. I think my arse is hungry. Oh well.
I just read the entries in my guestbook. Some webmaster called Bratyella says something as if she knew me. Harhhaa. i don't even know who in the blue hell she is.Hmmm that sounds familiar? Maybe she thought i was someone she knew. Ah well, another misinformation. that is good i guess. Hmm i think having a session at the mental institution is great i think. We talk and they listen. thats great eh? hmm i'm thinking of going to some free theraphy. that would be great or i should say awesome. Which one is better? You choose. I want to give up being SHIRT NINJA but i guess i wouldn't cause i love being a super hero. Hmmm do people know that? I don't think so. Sad. Pain. Hungry. Oh i forgot. Food makes the pain go away. w00t!

I don't know wether to laugh or cry?

It's Sunday already? Oh man, And again tomorrow starts a pre-recorded life of mine. Just work. Morning to work. Night to home. Some people like that. But not me. I want to go out. But nobody to go with. Just me and my ownself. Sucks ain't it? Walking alone in Ochard Road. Went to Borders and read Comics under the Comics Section. Way fun! i think?
But i think life for me is going okay now. Have gone out a couple of times with my cuzz. I think me and my cuzzs are getting closer after one of my cuzz got married last month. I think i'm having fun with them. If not for them, i think i'm going for a depression. I hope to get out with them more often. My friends well...they got a life of their own now. They got new friends now. I hope my cuzz can open up to me. Just share our own problems together. I got no one to share my problems with anyway.I think cuzzs is the best friends you can have. I happy for my cuzz, Shaifful. I hope he got together with that girl he really likes. Then Shaifful can be a Man! Hehehe.
darn. I think i'm joining GSF. I'm beginning to feel scared of them now. I can't even look them straight in the eye now. I know i can't. I don't know why?I tried once but i end up with face flushed with red. I think i still haven't found my point of life yet. Day by day, night by night i'm beginning to feel the voidness in me start to grow. I'm scared of end up being emptiness. For surely, I don't want to grow old alone. Hehh by the way, who cares what i'm feeling now. Nobody visit this site anymore anyway. Whoa, my own diary on a public network! Ain't i'm the brave one now?

Americans!? Who do they think they are? International police my ars3! What about the lifes they claim in Palestine? The man, childrens killed, woman raped in front of their owns blood. Do they care? NO!!! I'm shocked still about what have happened but they deserve that if i dare say. You reaped what you sow! Anyways the MassMedia(CNN, BCC,etc...) are being controlled by them anyway. They only show how bad we are and how good they are. Always pointing to ISLAM. Maybe there is no WW3 but maybe there is a 2nd HOLY WAR.


Allah Hu' Akbar
Allah Hu' Akbar
Allah Hu' Akbar

I surf thru this site and it kinda reminds me of LOVE again. that word. sometimes it makes me laugh. there is some point of time where i really believe in it. how just 2 normal people can just be together. And now its kinda blurry for me. But i need someone to love me. But who doesn't eh? I'm just a simple guy with a normal website, just to express my feelings. That site kinda make me go Whoa! you know? Some people just have the luck. There was a time in the past where i believed that I at last have someone to pin my hopes and dreams on to someone. How the exchange of words seems music to my ears. Now i'm just heartbroken i guess. I think i was going okay you know? But that site really makes me envy, you know?

Now listening to >> 311

(Chorus)
Along the way to close my eyes
I lost where I was going
The more it will spin the more that I try
To stop my mind flowing
Away away
To all that I despise
Along the way to close my eyes

You can’t be let down if you don’t expect
the world
Expect to lay awake there by your sleeping
girl
If somebody cares then there is no way
you can tell
Cursed consciousness it’s your private hell

(Chorus)

Tick tick tick the clock bludgeons your
mind
Endlessly replaying times that were unkind

Go away sun I’m not prepared for you today
It seems you are it seems you are

(Chorus)

-----------------------------------------------------------

A day like today is for you
To let your mind unwind like you ought to
Feel the earth turn ’round when your heart
rate slows
Contemplating the thing only your heart
knows
That life’s not a race

(Chorus)
So hard to believe
Part of me will fade
In the mystery
In a future world
Long ago
Part feels for your love
And lives to tell you so

The world whirls around your mind in a
golden spiral
The natural way that things organize
You can’t stop entropy so why even try
Observe the conscious flow and don’t mystify
Life’s not a race

(Chorus)

Slippin into a trance
A chance encounter in the autumn
What do I see an opportunity
And then, I got em’
Sought a chill-out mix to
Carve some space
To make you wanna listen
It’s a bubblin’ spring and
Double in kings of
This Soundsystem

(Chorus)

Do you see world without end
The rising sun my friend
Imagine cloudlike
You will form again
In the spacey boredom
In the autumn of late afternoon
You are calm
Just like a sleepy room

Arghhhhh this ASP and DOT NET thing is getting me a headache. PLease oh PLease FUCK ME! Why can't you please connect to the database as usual? SQL my ars3! How can i retrieve it if i cant even make a connection??? And i hope i can make a connection with some nice girLs out there. i need some love. i need someone to love me. I'm Single and very available. Let's be friends? I wanna be friend. What if i dropped myself from becoming the SHIRT NINJA and become a CHICK MAGNET? it would be certainly good. but i don't want alot of girLs. i just want one. But i'm not good looking. Any gerL out there thats is not into handsome and pretty boy? Oh man, i'm moving BREMENTON!

novocaine for the souL...

Heard the news yesterday? Kinda makes you go whoa!? eh? Planes crashing into the twin towers and the pentagon. Don't know whoa exactly did it. But one thing i hate about that they always point finger at ISLAM. what is this? ISLAM wouldn't do this kind of thing. Anyway they already denies .
This is one of the signs of Doomsday i tell you...

they know they murder X,
And try to blame it on ISLAM
- Rage Against The Machine

.:: Malay Edition ::.
PleyPalaButoh! Sial punyer komputer. ko satu hari kalau tak menyusahkan aku tak boleh eh? bingit aku tau tak. tak sakit ke kena tampar ngan aku hari2? kenapa la kau hang setiap kali aku save benda mustahak. apa sial ko nak dengan aku? tak puas aper? karang aku format karang padan muka kau ngan padan ngan muka aku sekali. bingit sial aku. pley puki kau peh akak nyer laki lah komputer. bingit! aku bingit!!!! Ko tengok ah nanti. ko buat lagik, aku hangong kepala lu ngan keyboard ni. siak lu. lu baik ngan gua, gua baik2 la ngan lu. sikit hari gua kaya, gua belanja lu marlboro merah ah beb. kita isap rokok sama2 okie. okie sekarang gua nak rilek one koner ah. gua nak tenangkan pikiran dari layan lu. buat gua sakit jiwa ajer.

.:: English Edition::.
He is sick!

What am i gonna tell my boss today? I don't go to the doctors cause they frucking bullshit. 30 bucks just to get an MC? no way hozay!
So i'm gonna bullshit through just like any other day. 8 weeks to go. Darn, i'm beginning to like this hell hole. Eventhough its friggin quiet,
i love it. Just be alone in this corner of the universe. nobody to harassed you. Just you and your own private parts. Woah Norain the star sign
my guestbook. I'm so honoured you know, well she's talented and such. But too bad, due to some circumcize, ermm i mean due to some
circumstances, she can't sing. Sad though. But i know one day, she'll make it through. U GO NORAIN.
She's the bomb i tell you. No doubt about that. Cause i nearly died...heheh. no i lied. sorry. now i got to wash my mouth with soap.

Surf through some personal website. some of the site is awesome. nice layout and stuff. then i read the content. quite great. but. yes there is a but. something that is troubling me. i dun want to say name so i refer this person as a he/she. in this site, he/she said that her life sucks and stuff. but i read that he/she is in a band and have many friends. And they said that they have no life. that life is a bored. And they are a bore themselve. i say wtf?! he/she have many friends and been going out and playing in a band. And he/she said they have no life? And then that makes me what? it saddened me sometimes, really...thats makes me worthless. i wanna cry and die.
Is life fair? funny how people say that their life sucks but actually the truth they have friends and such. what abt the nerds or the one with no looks and such?

Hello Saturday morning. got up at 11am. first thing first is switch on the tv and watch saturday cartoons. eventhough i don't even concentrate on them, i just love the sound of cartoons early in the morning.
I think i'm not going to the gig today if no one going with me. can't go with Fauzi, he will be buzy then. If i go, who will i hang out with? life truly suxX sometimes.
I think it will be an okay Saturday. My cuzz is renting a car and we'll be driving ard to nowhere. At least i got something to do. But i really want to go. Globas Chaos, Stomping Ground, FishTank. Whoa! great line up. Most come to worst maybe i just go and sit in a corner. Nobody cares really. Nobody will sit ard anyway...
My stomach is playing a song now. i think its playing jazz....no wait....rocksteady....no wait...i think its' pop music...oooooooh Nooooo!!!!! i got to eat something. No food in the fridge. Another trip to the Mamak shop again.
I don't like that Mamak shop. I mean the Mamak itself. the shop have done nothin' wrong. the Mamak i tell you, super super super doper slow in his work. i can imagine now how long he can complete his task as a cashier. i think he haven't enrolled in a SPEED CASHIER SCHOOL yet. maybe he should. if there is such a school. maybe he will be the fastest cashier. maybe i will like that shop. maybe i'm hungry now.
Is that a chicken. FAT JUCIY CHICKEN? Oh. no wait. thats my cat. sorry cat. i almost ate your legs. oooh juicy legs. oh i'm sorry again. w00t!

Let's gather and hold hand in hand. In unity in body and soul. Now slap each other silly till the boys scream like a girL and otherwise. If my theory is correct, then we will all live in pieces, *ehem i mean in peace. if we survive these, then the earth will be a peaceful place. we will get to know each other strength and the red pinkish slappy marks on each other cheeks. on the face cheeks not the butt crack on the back cheeks. mind you!

well tomorrow there's a gig. i don't know wether to go or not. i surely feel dorky alone. Fauzi ask me to follow him and help him out. i don't know wether he really means it. anyway i feel out of place really. i don't know all his friend. the queer will surely succombs me. that is not good. thats bad i say. very bad. what if i vomits in front of them. what if i break my spleen. what if somebody armpits get bitten up by ants when i accidentally spilled sweet coffee unto his/her armpit. btw where did i manage to get the coffee? that will not be nice. to them and to. but what about me. i vomit? eh!?

woW my cuzZs is going to celebrate my belated birthday tomorrow. its kinda funny actually. u know its 21 days late. can that be considered belated birthday? ah i don't care anyway. just wanna hangout with them actually. gonna ride a rent car. Whoa... i can now imagine like that show "that 70s show". whoa...

Hanging out,
Down the street
The same old thing
We did last week
Not a thing to do
But TALK to you
We are aaaalright * 3
Hello World!

it's going to 4pm now. i can't wait to go home. i feel kinda queer nowadays. i don't know why actually. maybe of the work. maybe. my life. my life is so slow. maybe i need some action to spice up my life. maybe some romance. some love. i need some love thats it. not parental love. i need friendship love too. maybe i need more. i am greedy.

i wanna sing a song from Incubus.
SUMMER ROMANCE
I'm home alone tonight.
Full moon illuminates my room, and sends my mind aflight.
I think I was dreaming up some thoughts that were seemingly
possible...with you.
So I call you on tin can phone.
We rendezvous at a quarter-two, and make sure we're alone.
I may have found a way for you and I to finally fly free.
When we get there, we're gonna go so far away.
Making sure to laugh; while we experience anti-gravity.
For years, I kept to myself.
Now potentialities are abound, and sleeping under my shelf.
Simply choose your destination from the diamond canopy.
and we'll be there.
So I call you on tin can phone.
We rendezvous at a quarter-two, and make sure we're alone.
I may have found a way for you and I to finally fly free.


oh i luv singing on the net. cause nobody can listen. am i am a crappy singer.
On this page you see a magic hippopotamaus <<---wrong spelling!

i miss my cat. why did you run away and why did you came back. why do you not remember me? are we not old friends? i do not think you as a pet nor a master i am. but why did you came back after a time of absence?i miss you cat. but now, why? do you not know me? i touch you but you ran away. i am so saddened by these. But now i have a new cat. Goodbye old friend. come visit me. I know you will always come and stand in front my house. but try to Enter and be glad. And you will have a new friend too. Wtf!? Am i talking to a cat? oh yay! another step to dimentia reality state of comatose of eternal bleeding of my pure soul of paradox. Eh?...

Oh man, the last time i saw myself on the mirror. i look like a dorky geek but without the brains of nerd geek freak. i hope to be one but with a James Dean face. ain't that cool? what what the heck. i am proud and glad to be normal and not defaced. but i am sad if girls choose because of the looks. i do not wish to be like this. if i can choose, people will surely want to look nice. Welcome to the real world! i remember someone saying that. emoCore i am! heeee! what if everyone is handsome and pretty? will there be any different? i don't think so. i say everyone in this world is beautiful. like some say, in their own ways. norm i am!
And if i can change. i would like to change my brain. i don't want to talk nonsense. nobody respect that. yeah surely there laugh at what am i babbling about. but i will just be another thing just to amuse people. now i know this. Clowns are very sad deep down inside. I am so sorry for you Mr. Clown. But the world is just as it is. but will anyone care? i don't think so. maybe there is. rarely. i am aidiL. and aidiL is me. we're a norm. but wait i am actually the SHIRT NINJA.oh man...did i say that out loud?

this i say nice. but if i know you. i would say it is not nice. cause that is what friends for. i think. but i dunno you. so u and ur webbie is nice. good bye nice people. oh where is my pants now? oh there it is on my head. no wonder i can't see. how do i type without looking. ahh good question. i redirect the keyboard to my nueral implants and therefore overclock the amps to a higher frequency and thus using my thought to type it. believe me? no? now bow to me you little grasshopper as i am a SHIRT NINJA.
Now where a-going you be?

hey i type this on someone guestbook and it shows halfway. is there a cursed on this words i type? ohhhh mysterious.....crapola me!

i tink my head is a conehead. maybe my brain is a shape of a cone. is that good?! cause if i don't have a brain, i am brainless and therefore i am not psycho. but dead. what is tic tacs? coloured cockroach eggs? whoa that is so nice.NOT!

.::I AM THE VITAMIN FOR THE HIBERNATING HUMAN ANIMAL::.

Imagine the brain as a canister filled with ink, now think the body where the ink resides. Fuse the two kapoW! what are you now? u're the human magik marker. won't you please surprise my eye?
-incubuS

currently i look like this. maybe i need a vacation. maybe i am mental diverge. maybe. or maybe i'm a shirt Ninja in disguise. Oops thats not a secret anymore is it?!

oh yay!!! tomorrow is saturday. And i know what it is. And you peeps out there know what it is. it's a day before Sunday! oh yay....ermm that wasn't special. Ah anyways there's a gig at Ayer Rajah CC. i hope my feet land there. it has been a while since i went to gigs. i think the last time was last june. whoa! that was an eons ago. i think i will be dorky. heheh.
yesterday was a rest day for me and today will be a dead day for me. what am i supposed to tell my boss. i don't have any MC with me. why didn't the alarm work yesterday!? heh maybe i was to lazy to even hear it. hmmm brain work please. oh please my dear brain. ahaH! i just gonna tell him i got a major case of diarhrea. did i spell that correctly? if i do, maybe i'll win the spelling bee contest. but there is none existant contest in singapore. i say there should be more of contest. yes i say, there will not be a day without contest. there should be at least 3 contest per day. Eg. like STUPID HUMAN TRICKS. i think i'll win that. i will just talk senselessly and walk funny, and amputated my arm. that is a trick.i think.
So once again, i'm here in this place. should i say office or a cemetery? oh very bad of me.NOT! hmmm i think my hair is becoming more dorkier than ever. what am i gonna do with this hair? i think it's alive. it never obeys me. why can't you be what i want you to be? i say, if freaking day, i will certainly send you to Hair Obedient School. Then my friend, you will become a train Jedi Hari Master. Then i will look like James Dean for sure. Hey i wish my hair is like james Dean. And maybe i will be Rebel without a cause but with a cause. Ermm did i say that?
Ok my boss is staring at me now. i think i'll be in dipshiTe. what is dipshite anyways? Oh the humanity. i think my boss is screaming at one of my colleague. did is spell that correctly or the correct spelling is colon? oh that is very bad. And it will certainly smell like the butt crack on your back. w00t! ramble later...

i've been trying to master this type of ancient technique. it's is such a powerful stance that when you use it, people around you will not able to know what are you truly doing.
the name of the technique is "SLEEPING WITH YOUR EYES WIDE OPEN". this is truly an ancient art. i'm halfway of becoming a master in it. i'm truly a SHIRT NINJA. now bow to me you little grasshopper.

Oh crap!!! its that time of day again. By looking at this face you know what i'm feeling right now.
Damn straight i'm feeling horny and Damn my wiener is itchy...

Right now! Yes right NOW, i'm listening to 3 different bands at the same time. THE URGE+311+INCUBUS
I'm so into them right now. Must be mellow for a while, no more hardcore. PERIOD. must set some balance to the force.
Waho0 i feel so dopey now. gotta have some cigs. Ahhh what the hell, TAPROOT is more it is, EMO+CORE!!!
Erkkk i think my boss is yelling right now. Ohhh man...what an anti-climax.
Gotta bang my head to walls now. bye. w00t!

whoa! brain freeze. it's all coming back to me. i know what wrong with my site. after having much trouble calculating and formulating i found out what wrongs.
my site = uber gay

any L33t h@x0r and L33t \/\/313i7i7@st3r to educated me?!

another day of wednesday. another day at work. i wish i can just be at home and sleep and play. play rpg games i say. not that kind of game. but that would be good though. oh yes the guestbook is now up and running. yeaH! still a few adjustments needed.
oh crap what am i gonna do todae for this week. mom and dad went to malaysia for a week. nobody at home. is this great? nobody to talk to. my sis also went with them. eventhough i always quarrel with her and she always win(what a pussyi am), i miss the company. now what am i gonna do? hmmm.... oh yeaH! call out all the party people and rock till break of dawn! waho0! but wait who are these party people? do i know them? Hello party people, are you free todae? wanna crash my house? ermm entrance is $3. waho0 i'm making money. you see, ain't i'm a genius. charging people money to come to my house to party? but then must i pay to the party people to party in my house? what the hell am i babbling about?!
ermm did i forgot to insert my brain and press reboot on my butt?! i wonder...


emotional times...

oh yay i say out loud! i just watch Dungeons and Dragons. wait! u must be saying "hey wait a minute,isn't that story lame". NO! i must say that the movie is quite erm... a show. If you have read AD&D,u must enjoy it eventhough it is crappy and shitty. but now i can't wait for the upcoming LORD OF THE RINGS. i must say that i'm quite a fan of this J.R.R Tolkien dude. i can't wait to buy the DVD version, the figurines and the swords and the ring and the...the...oh wait...i don't have enough money to even buy the books. i need $18 bucks so that i can buy the 3rd volume of the LORD OF THE RINGS TRILOGY. please? can you donate some money so that you can help me upgrade my mentality coS it's not so stable now. i mean NOW. w00t!

i don't like the look of my supervisor face. i can imagine smacking his smirking smile out of the face of this earth. so i say wtf?! he is angry but still smiling. so wtf!? i say again. one of these days, i know he gonna fall face first and no more of that smirk. but then i feel bad. i'm sorry Mr. supervisor. but wait i didn't done anything wrong. maybe yes maybe i just wait for him to fall and fall flat on his face and broke some of his front teeth, then i will say sorry. oh that is not so good. that is bad. so bad. ok bye bye now. gotta get out of this hell hole. yeah i'm going home! w00t!

wo0t! can't believe it. 2 weeks and still no work. oh i am so enjoying this shit. 10 more weeks and i'm a graduate. oh yay!
ah yes, the webCam is not working yet. i'm still working on it. erkk actually i haven't even bought one yet. huahahah.
oh people, i am so ashamed of myself. i going to get a diploma in IT and still my webbie is shitty and crappy.

people oh people, please send me some ideas. my site suXx0r. j00 0\/\/173d m3!

I think this city needs a HERO. yeah. Behold the
SHIRT NINJA
Don't you people laugh and mock me! I will be the defender of this city. Cos i'm a SHIRT NINJA.Tremble before me....(wait for my punchline okay)...Let's get Dangerous(~aka DuckWingDuck). Muahahaha (*cough) huahah(*cough) .need help. can't breathe. need air. Okay i'm better now. i swallowed a shirt. 8p.
You see? I even help myself on my own. I am indeed a HERO of my own. Don't laugh! i hear someone is giggling....is that you?

Hey you know what?
I'm already 21 years, 18 days, 15 hours, 45 mins and 31secs.
Do anyone cares? NOooooooooooooo!!!!
Harhhah

Somehow i try not to think of it. you know, about how my life sucks. It's just that people out there have so much things to do. so many friends to enjoy the time with. but me?i don't recall anything that can be considered life. for many weeks for aeons maybe, i just stay at home and play my rpg game. it's like Whoa! what wrong with my life?

I think it's time to get out and have a time of my life. on my own. yeah thats it. i'm thinking of walking down town and just walk and walk....go to Borders and have some books to "upgrade" my intelligence. Haahah! Darn, if i must, i'll go to gigs and all the other stuffs alone. where have my friends gone to? maybe i'm the one avoiding them. I don't really know. I want to be with them actually. It's just that maybe i'm a home type of guy. But i like to have a crazy time too. i'm not like old fashioned. it's just that i like to have a time of solitude. just by my own. it's better that way really. sometimes words can just hurt people around you, you know?

Maybe this evening after work, i'll be going to my cousin house to relax and just talk to her and her husband. i think i'm going quite well with her husband. he's a great guy. maybe just talk and watch some vcds. hmm life sucks still. don't you all say something to make me feel better.

i am lonely! wanna be my friend? Heheh maybe i should go and apply that online dating system eh? oh crap!

okie now that this archives thing have been done. now my plans to take over the world will soon commence. my secrets of taking over the world is sending out subliminal messages and send out clans of SHIRT NINJA warriors to strike fear to the population. erhm!? oh no, its not a secret anymore. my plans are foiled again. Huahahahha you will never heard the last of me yet! Now gotta get me a soda.

all alone in this cruel cold cubicle...today's weather is so relaxing. i wish i'm on my bed now. just sleeping and dreaming. dreaming about what you say? i guess u should know. No! that that kind of dream.

still trying to fix this archive thingy. arhhh head hurts. need rest. need some soda. need energy.....
Why can't technology and I just be friends. can't we work out things together? as a friendship, can you please make this thing works! please?...

Do you people know where im working now? Do you really wanna know?
I work in a place called STA(Singapore Telecommunications Academy). Hmmm is that good? Should i give you people the name of place where i'm working at? Ohhhh please Mr. Stalker man, please don't stalk me. You can stalk other people like Mr Policeman. You could have a free ride and a free lodge in Hotel California. Oh thank you Mr Policeman...

i just found something that can totally change my view towards the world. while rummaging through my closet, i saw something that will give me superpowers. not just superpowers, it will make me mysterious. with my plain old SHIRT, i will thus become the SHIRT NINJA. i am the terror in the night. Let's get Dangerous...

do you know what? RPG games are cool man! after reading books about fantasy such as the hobbit,Lord of the rings trilogy, dungeons and dragons. woW!isaid. Dune is good too but its a different story alltogether. But i feel that RPG games are way more cool than 3rd person shooter. can't wait to play my baldur's gate 2. wait for me babe. im an elven archer. with my wits and charm, i will.. urm...erm...i dunno but the game rocks!

Can't wait to buy icewind dale,everquest,neverwinter night and acarnum. And i wish they make a game based on J.R.R Tolkien world. He is the best there is. if i dare say he is the granddaddy of fantasy lore.

Ah yes, just wanted to wish a friend of mine. Her name is ayu. she just turn 21 last friday.

this is something for you. In french as we studied together.

Bonjour Ayu, vous savez pourquoi je parle dans French?Just vous fais savoir le son été gentil vous connaissant. Et après tous nous étudions l'ain't de Français ensemble nous? Et oui, vous tour juste 21. Désolé pour le souhait tardif d'anniversaire. Joyeux anniversaire encore que je dis à vous. Maintenant que vous êtes venus à cet âge, il ne signifie pas moins de jeu et plus de responsabilité. Vous êtes venus dans las mais la sagesse croîtra chez vous. Lisez ainsi ceci et reflétez notre meilleur temps avec tous nos amis. Et quand vous entrez dans le monde fonctionnant, j'ai besoin de vous pour vous rappeler ceci en tant qu'ami. Cette vie n'est pas une unité de feuillets magnétiques. Restez en contact. Vôtre, Un Ami

what a morning! the journey was so immensely quiet but my mind was working overtime, yeah! i had the most electrifying time of my life if i dare say so. it started to happened when i was in the bus to work. there is this one guy looking quite unnatural. i was sitting behind him and i smell danger. yes i smell danger. 'spider sense tingling'.i said. this guy was perspiring. strange i said. on an aircon bus? hmmm. out of a sudden. this guy sprang unto a cute plus size girl. with my unimaginable power and will, i react suddenly. yes i said. the hero in me shall arise once more. i beat the crap out of the guy and save the damsel in distress. and we(the cute plus size girl) lives happily ever after.......Erm actually i lied. It was a normal monday. just normal like every other day. what tomorrow adventure will i have eh?hmmm