WITH GREAT POWERS COME GREAT RESPONSIBILITIES!
HERE COMES THE FRIENDLY NEIGHBOURHOOD THEMEEKY!

Haha LAME I AM!

A new age of reason, bring treason to trick the mind
What good is searching if nothing’s there to find?
We arrive at this place of no return my brothers
Only to discover that our minds have led us away
so far from the painful truth of who we are
What’s right is wrong, what’s come has gone
what’s clear and pure is not so sure
It came to me
All promises become a lie, all that’s benign corrupts in time
The fallacy of Epiphany...

He was always quiet, he was battling depression
Hey, you, Is there something worth belonging to? and
can I pick it up for a song, or a diploma, or a worthy cause?
Well, let me tell you that there's nothing wrong
It's just the ones like us will never belong...

Tomorrow night will be my 2nd Freaky Expedition.
I will place some weird/freaky photos i took last week at Labrador Park after i scanned them.
Tomorrow Expedition will be equipped with a HI8 VideoCam and My trusty Canon AE-1.
The group will comprise of my 8 squadmates.
Moi and my cousin will be the driver for that evening.
The vehicle will be a Scooby Doo type of van.
Or maybe a pick up truck. Heh!
Wish us luck and Just wait for the outcome...

I know, I know.
You must be thinking.
How stupid can that guy be?
Wasting his time on such things.

If you're thinking just that. FUCK YOU!
Pardone moi francais!
Heh! Heh!

Out of love....So what's the friggin' big deal?

Lose
Music: Hexum; Lyrics: Hexum

I can see it now
I have to show you how
The funny thing is that we couldn't have it any other way
Still it kills me when we say
All we've been through
All the songs that I've sung for you
We both know I'm gonna lose you

I hate to be alone
There comes a time to reap what you've sewn
All we've been through
All the songs that I've sung for you
We both know I'm gonna lose you

Let's think of all the good times
Instead of wish we could times
So much better that way
This is what I ask for
This is what I deserve
Be careful what you ask for

Life is all about relationships.
But when your not having any, is there life?
Relationship doesn't mean you loving a girl.
It's about having friends.
Spending times together.
Chill together. Have short laughs. Have a few drinks.
Friends is so important in life.
But there are many types of friends. Definition of friends.
Do you ever had a buddy?
Where you just hang out with them every day.
And you see them again the next. Just to hang out.
It seems that the relationship together between guys is much more higher than having a girlfriend.
No wonder girlfriend are always jelous when guys hang out together.
You can do whatever you want. Scrathing your balls. picking your nose. chain smoking. laugh to a non existant humor.
It's just another beautiful thing in life.
Without them, you can't evolve yourself.

I need prozac.

Please take away this internal void inside off me.
I'm not happy and please don't tell me that you can help me solve them.

THIS IS ME TESTED BY THE SYSTEM.

You are a very sensitive person and you try hard (perhaps a little too hard) to make favourable impressions and to be recognised by your peers. But you have that inherent need to feel appreciated and admired and you are easily hurt if all of your endeavours go by unappreciated or not acknowledged. Stop trying so hard.

You seem to lack the energy of late to get up and go. Your objectives appear to be unattainable and no one seems to care. You feel lost, neglected and need some W.T.C. (Warm tender care).

Your confidence has been shattered. There are so many things that you would like to do with your life, so many dreams to be fulfilled - and you know that your hopes and dreams are not just figments of your imagination, they are real and you are looking for reassurance from someone. Basically your fears are such that you may be prevented in attaining your hopes and dreams. Even now you would like to broaden your fields of endeavour but in order to develop your 'inner- self' you need peace and solace. You are distressed by the fear that you may be prevented from attaining your goals. What you really need at this particular moment in time is quiet reassurance from someone close to you to restore your confidence.

Whatever you strive to do, something always seems to be holding you back. There is no subterfuge in you. You are a clear thinker and all you demand from life, in a relationship, is a partner whom you can trust and with whom you can, together, develop a foundation of trust based on understanding. You are your own person and you demand freedom of thought to follow your own convictions. You have no interest in 'two-timing' and all you seek is sincerity and 'straight-dealing'.

You are trying to build up your own position and you resist all external influences. You insist that you are your own person and you will not tolerate any outside interference. Decisive and proud, you are true managerial material.

What Faz told me the other day is somehow impolitically correct. <--see how i make myself look stupid
It is better to stay inside the barracks than the OUTSIDE WORLD
It seems that my world have been separated into 2 zones.
I feel different outside.
Others seems anxious to book out. to meet their love ones.
As for me. I am just another dumb face.
Inside the barracks everyone looks the same.
Sick Sad World.

I'm tired, too depressed and horny.
help me please!
Anyone.

Today me and my squad mates are going for a ghost hunting expedition.
We are suicidal sadistic bunch of STUPID MANGKUKS!

I think i need a girlfriend by now.
Everyone seems to look forward meeting their love ones.
But I am a bloody STUPID MANGKUK!
I need PROZAC fast.
Depression is a bad thing.
Just like a black wave for Elizabeth Wurtzel.
PROZEC NATION.
Get them!

3 weeks have passed.
Life in PA is so much fun. Not.
I mean it's fun but it's not fun.
I've become a paradox myself.
YOU CIBAI!
STUPID MANGKUK YOU!
That is the same verse I heard all day. Every day.
I think that is some sort of a ritual that the instructors should do.
Or they die and gagged themself in their own blood.

First day
The looks on everyone faces.
Some look ancious.
Some look retarded. So am I.
Food was served.
Did our oath taking.
Everything went fine.
Till we got our hair cut.
We have become SPACEMONKEYS MANGKUK!
This is when Hell start...
YOU STUPID MANGKUK!
45 degree to ur left palms DOWN!
DOWN!
DOWN!
DOWN!
THAT GUY NEVER DO!
BACK TO ZERO!
YOU CIBAI!


The same thing happen every day.
Seems like de javu to me.
We are STUPID CIBAI MANGKUK!

I'm on the blog again.
I'm sick and i have nuts in my throat.
I'm having cough and sore throat.
And contestants from "If The Price Is Right" are retards.
End.
See you guys next weekend.