I knew that one day I'm gonna get it bad.
Got my duty roster and found out that
I'll be working on Hari Raya and the day after.
This is madness I'll tell ya.
what did i do to deserve this????
Arghhhhhh
I'll sent my shirt ninja.
You wait.You just wait.


Wah macam gini masak lemang kat atas boat lah aku!
Kena nyanyi lagu Dendang Perantau sorang2 sey.
Aku nak nangis sekarang sampai pagi raya ah...

In ENGLISH
He is a very sad man.

Met my cousin and hang out.
And he talked about the people he served at his workplace.
Working in a cafe can be quite an ass.
About how customer can be a big moronic bith sometimes.
Then he told me about a regular customer.
Everyday he look very bubbly and cheerful.
Till one day he look different from any other days.
Alas depression has caught up with him.
He was caught by the police for doing something stupid i guess
and they throw him in a mental institution.
He was a loner i guess. No companion.
How sad can life be?
No more sad songs, No more sappy songs for me.
But I guess depression is slowly creeping up on me.
Work and no play make jack a very fucking dull boy.
I need a holiday man.
I need to get out from Singapore.
Before I burnt out.

These days I talk in riddles.
Round and round I would go.
Maybe I am Gandalf's rock-and-rolling youngest brother.
If I were secretly a pirate.


Seven that I see.
Destiny, Death, Dream, Destruction, Desire, Despair and Delirium(which was once known as Delight)
They are the states of human conciousness itself.
They cannot cease to exist until thought itself cease to exist.
If you are conciousness personified.
Which of these seven are you?
Answer these and you're halfway there.
To where? I do not know.
Perhaps only you can answer that.

De te fabula
the story, whatever story, is always about you.

As you can see.
It's related to Dream.
I seek refuge in the Realm of the endless dream.

The Sandman.
The king is dead, long live the king.

Once again I see that door. door to endless mysteries.
Behind that door is a vast space of endless void.
An endless void it is. But not just darkness.
In that void, there is stars like glitters sprinkled over a black cloth.
And within it, there is a pair of eye. A dark eye with a silver star.
I shall dream and the entities spawned will be the servants to Dream.
But I said no. Not today. My mind is not yet clear.
No matter what, I cannot dream in the wake.
But will they die? Die? I dare not say. An idea cannot be killed.
It's the personification of an action.
As you can see, an idea is a dream.
With this i fear Dream wil crumble to an endless dust.
What is that oppose the Dream?
Is this the work of the Kindly ones?
And why is my mind speaks of ..............
Is this the work of Delirium. You were once called Delight.
Why can't you hold your sanity? Why do you lost the ability to "hold yourselfself together."
But it has been theorized that this change was the result of something fundamental that changed in the minds of sentient beings everywhere.
I know one day you will change once again.
And so shall I.
I need to DayDream again.

There are only 2 worlds, your world, and the other, the fantasy. World like this are worlds of the human imagination; their reality, or lack of reality, is not important. What is important is that they are there. These world provides an alternative. Provide an escape. Provide a threat. Provide a dream. and Power. Provide refuge and pain perhaps. They give your world meaning. They do not exist; and thus they are all that matters.
Do you understand?

-Titania

And of all days, I miss the show SCRUBS
Stupid Flu.
Anyone of you seen it?
How was it?
Care to share it with me...

Look out French,
Here I come to save the day!
With these pair of eyes,
Will I absorb the messages hidden within it.

French Film Festival
Oct29 - Nov12

Oo La La!

Extracts from The Sandman chronicles

EBLIS O'SHAUGHNESSY: Sir Librarian -- the young lord in white... who was he?
LUCIEN: He is Dream of the Endless.

EBLIS O'SHAUGHNESSY: He is...? But the wake. The ceremony. I was told that Dream of the Endless was no more.

LUCIEN: Yes.

EBLIS O'SHAUGHNESSY: So... who died?

LUCIEN: Nobody died. How can you kill an idea? How can you kill the personification of an action?

EBLIS O'SHAUGHNESSY: Then what died? Who are you mourning?

ABEL: A point of view.

How long can a boy go without sleeping? When do the nightmares sneak out into the daylight?
I would have dreamed of you... if I could dream.
It's been a strange century for all of us...
The Dreamworld, the Dreamtime, and Unconscious -- call it whatever you will -- is as much part of me as I am part of it. And for the first time since my return, for the first time , I reach out my substance... and I shape the world...

I need to learn.....again

Today event has shown that I had failed badly in my social subject.
Due to my unforseen circumstances, I had make a mockery out my dear self.
Such occurance or anything done by me is usually forgiven to myself
But indeed today was out of line. I would kick myself in the shin because of this.
I need to learn the basics of social engineering. Maybe I should get a diploma.
If there was such things.
On this day, 12th October 2002, Saturday I followed my friend Fauzi
to watch a concert/drama organized by MAG at his ex-Poly instituition.
And so the story begins, and I was in the centre of it all.
After the concert ends, I waited for Fauzi outside as he was with his other friends.
But waiting for him was unbearable.
It's not because he is late but they was so many girls around me.
I feel erm..... what should i say? Victimized? Nah....
Half of me wanted to stay but the other half of me just wanna get the hell out.
I don't know why but i was feeling somehow "lost".
Alas I saw Fauzi and he introduced me to his friends.
So I just say hello to them. That was ok.
Then he introduced me to one of his friend called TheOneWhoShouldNotBeName
Beforehand he told me about her and he kinda feel like matchmaking me with her.
Thats a laughter i tell ya.
When my friend,intriduce me to her, and her to me,
I just responded with my stupid wave movement and smile a crooked at her.
And then that was it.
That was the longest one minute ever in my life.
It seem forever.
She seem shock. And i feel like i'm having a grave danger look on my face.
It was ackward.I totally bail.
She looks nice though.
Now i truly understands whats wrong with me.
I'm very shy in front of pretty/beautiful girls.
Maybe I just don't trust them.
I need guidance!
I am so suck.


I don't know why but my mind like to soar the skies lately.

I'm feeling emo out of sudden.
Why do people tell me that I'm weird ,kelakar seram?
I'm just indeed a shy guy. Just a bit QUEER thats all.
Nothing much.
That is i fear most.

Listening to those FUNKY MONKS just lifted up my soul.
These are indeed food for the ears and mind.