Friendship or Love comes first?
Which will you choose in time of hardship?
There is a bare thin line that separates this two,
But the meaning is a huge gap.
This is one of the secrets in Life.
Tell you one day.
One fine day.
Or perhaps you'll find it yourself.

lets go out and play
can you see the madness of the crowds?
who would you like to see?
And give him a hell of a day.
Kick that can and take aim on a blind mice.
Laugh with spasms and cry

The body is just a vessel.
I do not know when will this vessel crumble.
The only left is the soul.
The pure essense of life.
The memories. The knowledges.
Reel of images playing in black and white.
Slowly rotating thru the dim light.
Slowly and inviting.
I know.
I am happy
I am sad
I am angry
I am disgusted
I am ashamed.
I am honoured
I am delirious.

Every night before i sleep, i know i will die.
Every night before i sleep, i will laugh with all my heart.
Every night before i sleep, i know everything will end.
Every night before i sleep, i will cry knowing that everything is not real.
Knowing that Sleep is the little death.

When she felt the songs were worthy of an album, she entered the studio and recorded, what we know today as "Tidal". "My album is called Tidal partly because all this has hit me like a tidal wave but also because "tidal" refers to ebbing and flowing, and that's really what life is, a constant ebb and flow."-Fiona Apple says.

a constant ebb and flow.
Do not ever close the beach.
But can you ever close it anyway?

This few years have been a roller+coaster ride for me.
How strange can it be? Possesing and caressing me.
Alot of changes. Either you change, or you die.
Evolve.

I have seen people. Not all maybe.
But I know people that I can really connect+reconnect.
I can say that I can really "immerse" myself to these few people.
I didn't really know this guy until I hang out with him.
Never know we had many things in common.
Great dude.Great mind.Think mindfuck.
We even have the same name.
All that I can say is that a stranger is a friend that you never know.
In time maybe.

When i mean friends, i really mean friends.
No facades. No nothing.
Just like the scene in Good Will Hunting.
Just doing the routine without any care in the world.

What ever it is,
Nur Firzillia gua cinta sama lu lah eh!
Powzee, Sepul, Aidil. Korang best in the world lah.

Words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup,
They slither wildly as they slip away across the universe
Pools of sorrow, waves of joy are drifting through my opened mind,
Possessing and caressing me

Aisey gua feeling lagi sial.

Devil got my woman
Haunting tune.
I really meant it.
Forget EMO.
Try BLUES.

SKIP JAMES
When Robert Johnson went to the crossroads, he didn't meet the devil, & he didn't trade his soul to learn guitar (like Son House says).

He met Skip James, & he got a hellhound on his trail.

There, is the dread. It was Skip James that he was tryin' to shake. & he got caught.

When James says the devil got his woman, you damn well better believe it's 'cause he let her go.

When they lowered James into the ground, the casket was vibrating.

Listen carefully . . . you can still hear "I'm So Glad". 10,000 watts of British amplifier can't kill that.

You said it right.
the meaning of Best friend is just an illusion.
Just a different perspective when you're in need.
Different people Different way.
Not to get tangled emotionally.

Just be puppets.
Wearing a mask.

The "gangster" hamster given to me by Fiz doesn't really like me that much.
It seems that it is cooking up a plan to escape.
Like escaping from Alcatraz.

When I off the lights and trying to sleep,
I can hear it digging its way using a miniscule spoon.

I woke up and pop my head out the window,
and stares out into the sky.
I think I saw Venus.
Yes I think I do.
Do you know that Venus is the greatest brightest second to the Moon
during night time.
I think I have night vision toggled to ON.
That's why I can see.

Distance from me is aprroximately 1.6122 au.
Don't ask me what is AU.
I sucks in Astronomy.

Hahaha.
This must be the funniest inside joke i ever heard(seen).
Hahaha.
This is stupid.

Usually i don't do socializing.
Even if i do, i'll ask for a fee.
Heh.

Today was such a good day to just sleep.
Then again everyday to me is a nice day to sleep.
Well i'm not used to the idea of leaving my bed for far too long.
But i think it must be stop.
I should get out more often.
Social engineering is a must or you're fuck.
I mean you're really fuck.
The world ain't that nice if you ask a naive guy like me.
I really am. And you should bloody believe it.

Usually when i went out with some friends.
I'm just not really there.
I'm just somewhere else.
Maybe I just don't belong there.
Or is it just me?

Anyway today "human interactions" works really fine.
Too mighty fine.
I don't think that i still have the energy to just really be out of my mind.
It's just insane sometimes.
The "ME" inside me really started to coming out again.
I have to say NS shit fuck have really change me into something i'm not.
But friends are the ones who really can help me from straying into the darkside.
Do not take me away yet, Delirium.
I'm not yet ready.Or ever.
Thanks to the mamas(an) and the colourful (neon?) lights at "LIL INDIA".
Great to meet you aidiL(kampung Dusun)

Apa2 pun CINTA.
Halus la lu geng.
Aisey, feeling sial gua.

In the late 1980s, kings and queens were dressing and behaving like ordinary people, and i felt that it was the celebrities and especially the
ROCK STARS - who were our true loyalty.

I want to be king.
I really do.
So hand me my guitar and a chord book.

Symmetry, is it an art of mathematics?

why is mathematics considered a universal language whereas art is much more easier to understand(i beg this to differ)?
and what the bloody differences between art and mathematics?
There is no rules for art(i think) as oppose to mathematics.
But for worlds without rules, isn't it be dangerous to live in?
Chaos of colours and dangerous "imagry".
This all leads to a conclusion.
An artist is much more than a madman.
But the tables are turned when a mathematicions is OD on caffeine.

rules.proxy.conditioning.brainwashing.
boredom.linear equations.sporadic evolutions.
depressions.delirium.despair.abrasion.mind fuck.

If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all.

Me: ...?

Body aching..Body aching...
"screeching" sound
and the sound so soothing...

Go to
the Berlin wall
and
watches it crumbling down
as the rain
tatters
onto a
shiny
paintjob.

Does Life means anything when everything will eventually end someday?

But it's the moments that keeps me alive and stronger.